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2.9.10

I remember that feeling of your palm when we held hands, the way you kissed my cheeks, the days we spent talking to each other till the break of dawn and it only felt like it's an hour. I remember you asking if I love you the way you are. I told you it was a stupid question. You pushed my hair back and look me in the eye and say thank you. Till now, I can't figure out why. You have the most mesmerizing eyes I have ever seen. Those eyes were filled with dreams and I can see that. That smile will always brightened up my days even if the worst is still yet to come. You hugged me that night when I was crying and you didn't say anything but you cried with me. Your tears hit my shoulder like bullets and you whisper in my ear saying you will shed every tear for me. You held me close and hugged me like as if you're hugging your pillow. We cried all night till we're tired enough to fall asleep.

That morning, when I wake up, I see you right next to me, sleeping peacefully. I stroke your hair and kissed your forehead. You woke up! You kissed me in the forehead too and got up. I asked you where are you going and you said you're gonna make breakfast for the both of us. You told me to take a shower and get dressed. After my shower, I head to the kitchen, you weren't there. I was worried. I hear the shower water running and I was relieved to know that you're in there. I sat on the couch watching the television and then you came up to me and kissed me on my cheek and say you're going to get dress. I blushed. I watched you walk up the stairs and listen to every step you took, counting them.

After you got dressed you told me to sit down and watch the telly while you go make breakfast. In about 45 mins, you called out my name and told me that breakfast was ready. You made scrambled eggs and french toast and it tastes so good. You put down the fork and said that you have to tell me something. I asked what was it and you said that you're moving to New York. My heart sank down to my core but I kept a straight face and just sit there. A tear rolled down my cheek and you got up and hugged me real tight. and kissed my forehead. That night, you sent me home and you made me promise to see you leave. I didn't. I didn't because I had school. I didn't have the chance to say goodbye properly. It haunts me though.

When I logged into my facebook I got a message. A message from you! My heart was racing like as if it's going to beat out of my ribcage! I opened it and you said : Hey, Dear! I miss you! I love you tons! I'm in New York now and i really wished you could see the christmas light here! They're awesome. Well, I wished i could come back earlier, but you know how my family is. I promise when i get back home, i would hug you so tightly! You just rest that sleepy head of yours and sleep tight, baby. I love you

My heart jumped for joy! We talked till we didn't even noticed the time. It was night there and morning here. I finally got a chance to hear about you and your new life. You made a new friend name Kyle. He was your best friend and he got to know about me. He thinks you're lucky. I don't see why. You told me the reasons but I doubt some of it. We finally got the hang of it! We got the hang of long-distance relationship! I feel so happy! I love you!

Then, you didn't send me any messages anymore. It's been a month or so and my birthday is coming. I was hoping that you'll give me a message and that would make me feel happy. One day, I went online on MSN and Kyle was online but you weren't. I wonder why. Kyle started a conversation with me by wishing me a happy birthday. I thanked him and asked about you. Are you away for some audition in school? Or an interview for work?

On April, 12th was the day I found out you went back into God's hands. You left the world 4 days before my birthday. Kyle told me you were so very sick. You were suffering from a heart condition. I cried, honey. I cried for weeks regretting not saying goodbye to you for good. I never did attend your funeral. I didn't get to see the face that I have always loved with all my heart. I didn't get to touch that hair I always stroke. I didn't get to hold those hands I always loved to feel, for the last time. but I did get to remember those days, weeks, months and years we spent together. They're all good ones.

But, all I have ever wanted to say to you was thank you. Thank you for making me feel I'm important. Like my life is not gone to waste. I love you

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

December first I'm in a foreign state
I'm running late, I'm all alone
Wishing I was home with you, baby
She's got a way of making things okay
When she's not around, when she's not around
I'm going crazy
We like to talk about the plans we make
And things we say when we're together
I hope for better weather this year
But you my dear, need to know
This year I want you alone

Ho ho hopefully this holiday will make us believe that
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
And we're ho ho hoping that
We all come back and as a matter of fact I know
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
Together by this Christmas tree

We go together like the winter and this sweater
And she makes me feel, she makes me feel alive inside
And when I look into her eyes I see the blue and green
Like christmas lights, like christmas lights oh what a sight
She says I've got a way of making everything okay
She's not alone, she's not alone, and never will be
Ho ho hopefully this year I'll have you alone

Ho ho hopefully this holiday will make us believe that
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
And we're ho ho hoping that
We all come back and as a matter of fact i know
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
Together by this Christmas tree

(Don't you know this year I want you alone?)
Baby I want you alone

Ho ho hopefully this holiday will make us believe that
We're exactly where we're supposed to be (exactly where we're supposed to be)
And we're ho ho hoping that
We all come back and as a matter of fact I know
I'm exactly where I need to be
With you by this Christmas tree
Together just you and me
Together by the Christmas tree

I love you


Thursday, September 02, 2010

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Hey there ;D The name is Lynna. 14. Is a hypocrite(not that much though.I'm still nice XD) An asshole. Has tons of issues with people. Seriously. I will kick and punch the crap outta ya. I'm like that. I may seem weird and scary on the outside but very fragile on the inside not to mention sweet(pfft). Very fragile. So be sure to be careful on how you treat me ;) I'm a normal girl who is not in a clique or whatever. Hate that alot.I do not expect you to get me, or anything on this website, I know I can be complicated, I don’t get along with many people.I got a lot of aspirations, and they’re what’s keeping me alive. I mixed with alot of people who has different genres like ; punk, emo, indie and metalcore and more of course. Issues with people is a concern for you guys. I dislike people asking me for my MSN without even talking to me first. I hate creepy people who are above 48+ years old who has Facebook in the first place, yuck,and to be sure to get this clear : DO NOT ELABORATE FUCKING BULLSHITS STORIES YOU TELL YOUR BOYFRIENDS OR WHATEVER ABOUT ME :D oh, ask me anything if you're curious enough to ask ;D Thanks for reading. Haha, In case I haven't mention, I hate chain mails. Send them to me, I'll delete you..For sure. End.© Copyright
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